Thursday, August 14, 2008

A Few Thoughts

Why are promises broken?--->Promises are broken so that someone can come along and show you how to trust
Why do people change?--->People change for good and bad, but the only change you can control is within you
Why are hearts broken?--->Hearts are broken so they can become stronger, and so that one day you can recognize true love
Why do friendships end?--->Friendships end for one reason or another but, when old friendships end its the perfect time for a new one to begin.
Why don't we realize what we have til its gone?--->We are human, we get comfortable so we lose people and things in our life to help us to be grateful

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

GRATEFULNESS CHECK

Today has been a struggle to say the least. I was ranting and raving to my sister about all of my issues and how I couldn't do things anymore, she stopped me abruptly and started to name things I should be grateful for. Immediately my mood began to change and I began to calm down, then my very in tune sister gave me the challenge that by tomorrow I needed to have a list of 10 things I am grateful for and why. Not just a list but a thoughtful list. Here is the list of 10 things I am grateful for:

1-MY SISTER KENDRA- for always being there to wake me up when I am being selfish and in self-pity. Her willingness to listen to any of my stories or problems no matter what time of night and how stupid it may be. Cheering me on in all my efforts even when I don't think I can do it! Thanks for letting me always tag along when we were younger, and sacrificing your friend time and letting me come! It saved me:) Finally I love her outrageous and retarded voicemails that always make my day.

2-MY MOM-Though we may not always see eye to eye, she is there always having my best interests at heart. Loving me despite all my flaws, foolishness, and crap I put her through. Simply sending me a text saying"Just wanted to let you know how much I love you" at 11:00pm which is way past her bed time=) Sitting with me at work for 7 completely boring hours and not complaining. The songs she makes up that make no sense but always put a smile on my face. I love her hugs and its hard not getting those as often anymore since I live away from home. I m so glad she is only a phone call away, which we all say but I really am it brings home closer to me since I am down in Orem. Thank you mom for keeping me up on all the family news, you know how much I hate being out of the loop. Thanks for trying your hardest to make it possible for me to finish school and the unwavering support. I love you Mom

3-MY CAR- NEMO I am so glad for a car that can get me around everywhere and anywhere my heart desires and allowing me to help others in the process.

4- BEING LDS- I am grateful to the church and its awesome teachings full of hope, I am so grateful that I have the knowledge that one day I can live with my Heavenly Father and my family again, that even though I mess up it doesn't mean the end of things that I can repent, prayer-that I can pray and receive comfort and direction in my life, temples- how lucky I am to have not only 1 but 2 that are within about 20mins of where I live.

5- MY UNCLE KEVIN & AUNT ELAINE- For allowing me to live with them for about a month while I wait for my contract to begin. For feeding me, providing a bed, allowing me to stay out late, helping move all my stuff downstairs, and just talking to me and ask me what is going on my life. Oh and for putting up with me reading Breaking Dawn and my random ranting and outbursts about the book. Thanks for everything!!

6- FRIENDS- I am grateful to all my friends for putting up with my blondness, and me in general it takes a lot! Thanks for making me laugh, especially Kristen, Chris C, and Chris H----you 3 make my day more often than not. Thank you to My Boys back home who allow me the only girl left to hang out with them when I go home. To everyone else thanks for everything you do its appreciate, sorry if I don't always show it!

7- MUSIC- Thank you music for allowing me to express how I feel and being an intricate part of my life, a stress reliever(driving down the street blasting the music and singing at the top of my lungs) And for keeping me awake at work:)

8-FOOD- I love food and am grateful that it is so easily accessible to me to have all the time and that I don't have to starve and scrounge for it!!

9-BOOKS- For allowing me to escape reality for a few hours and letting my imagination go. Also for letting me learn so much that I wouldn't be able to learn otherwise.

10- MY BROTHERS & DAD- I love you all!! Thanks Kaydo for being my best friend growing up and being protective of me and watching out for me- I m so proud of you!! Dad thanks for providing all of us with more than the necessities and loving and supporting me unconditionally. Klancy & Klane I love you 2 pains!! I can't wait till you two are all grown up the 6 of us will have even more fun, thanks for calling me and wondering what I am up to for no reason at all. Kyle- Thanks for being the oldest and taking on that responsibility, thanks for being a pretty cool brother, I'll always remember when you took me to Wendy's for lunch just to talk and hang out with me.

I am grateful for much more than these things but these are the people and things that came to my mind! I can tell you that this is way more impacting than just making a list truly thinking about it makes all the difference in the world. =)